Dear Future Friends

Dear Future Friends –

Welcome to the very beginning of my fun, interesting, (hopefully) mildly entertaining, and very broke blogging journey!

“So, danielle – why did you decide to start a blog about how to ball on a budget?” – You

“I’m so glad you asked!” – Me

This crazy idea all started a few years ago when I realized what I was passionate about and then took a look at my bank account.

For starters, I can’t keep myself off of Pinterest. I can’t help but wish that I could wear every single thing that I pinned to my “Summer & Spring Fashion” board. I kept telling myself that I’d be insanely fashionable if I only had 6 figures in my bank account. I decided that sweatpants and a messy bun was my destiny.

I also love to go on adventures. To me, an adventure can be anything. An adventure can be scuba diving with sharks or it can mean taking a hike with your friend (and trying really hard not to show how incredibly out of shape you are). I had all these ideas of where I wanted to go and what I wanted to do – my bucket list was getting longer and longer.

But you need to know one other really important thing… 

I’ve struggled with health issues for a long time. I can’t remember a time when I didn’t have anxiety. The depression kicked in when I hit high school, but I honestly didn’t think anything was wrong. I just thought that what I felt was normal.

Then college hit.

Anemia, PCOS, inflammation in my entire body, herniated disc in my lower back, panic attacks, crippling depression – I was in a war against myself. My interests fell to the back burner and surviving everyday with a smile on my face became the only thing that mattered. I went to doctor after doctor trying to figure out how the hell to fix my body and get my life back. This went on for years.

I had two choices which I thought about a lot:

1) Give up and hit the ‘exit’ button or 2) Fight like hell 

These two choices were always in my mind, but I knew I had to make a final decision when my dad got cancer, my best friends turned on me, I was at the end of a four year relationship, and I was failing my classes.

Everything in me did not want to fight, but I knew I had to listen to the 1% of me that said “just keep swimming” (thanks, dory!).

So, I packed up my things at the end of the semester, didn’t register for spring classes, and signed up for YWAM (Youth With A Mission) – a 5 month volunteer program that would have me live in Australia for 3 months and then do missions work in India and Myanmar for 2 months.

I had people question me, doubt me, cuss me out (yes – this really did happen), and encourage me when they heard the news. It was an incredibly risky decision, but it was a decision that saved my life. 

That decision catapulted me out of all the crap. Now, I’m on the otherside. Trust me, there was a lot of BS that went on while I was gone and a lot of BS I had to deal with even when I got back. But, that back story — all that crap — brings me to where I am now.

If you’ve read this far:

1) bless you 2) thank you 3) I swear I’m almost done here

I’ve found myself (side note: I absolutely hate that phrase, but hey- if the shoe fits…). I don’t have to focus on survival. Now, I can take up on my friends spontaneous and crazy ideas for adventures. I have the mental energy to sort through all the racks at Goodwill to find awesome clothes.

I’m broke, but I’m happy. If you stick with me, I would love to share my struggles with you, my successes, my thrifty fashion finds, and my stupid stories from all my adventures.

I want this blog to be a place of encouragement (yes, that means I’ll probably share cheesy tumblr quotes or inspirational messages). If you want advice – whether it’s on fashion or travel or mental health – I’d love to help in any way that I can. I’m not claiming to be an expert on these things, but I can share what I’ve learned and what I’m learning.

On that note, I’ll leave you with this:

“You many encounter many defeats, but you must not be defeated. In fact, it may be necessary to encounter the defeats, so you can know who you are, what you can rise from, how you can still come out of it.” – Maya Angelou  

Climbing through life with you,

DC

p.s. see some 📸 of me doing things on my instagram: @daniellecolucci

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7 thoughts on “Dear Future Friends

  1. prathi balasubramanian says:

    So glad to see that you took matters into your own hands and decided to tread the path less taken or favoured. Most of us just succumb to our adversities and justify it as fate.

    This story of yours brings back my not-so-fond yet highly impactful memories which has shaped a major part of what I am today. I was in a very similar rut at one point in my life and so badly wanted to yield. But that one brave decision brought along with it all the answers to the questions I didn’t even have the courage to ask. Seems it did so to you too:)

    Here’s to us (and other brave souls) for breaking more new grounds! 🙂

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